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01 January 2008 @ 12:49 pm
Nina Gordon has this song called 2003.  I remember the first time I heard it, like 1999 and I was thinking 'God, that year is never going to come.....its so damn far away'.  5 years later that seems a bit silly.  Time moves so fast I am usually running to keep up.

The day off work, nothing beats it.  I need to clean and do laundry but who wants to lay bets on any of that stuff getting done?  Who wants to do that when I can lay around, watch countless hours of Law and Order, write, and drink far too much soda for anything healthy?

Is it OK to cheat at losing weight?  I keep seeing all these commercials for all of these things like Zantrek and Trim Spa and I am so tempted.  I walk to and from work everyday, about 2 miles roundtrip.  It keeps me toned but it doesnt help me lose much.  So, if I slimmed up the easy way wouldnt the walking keep me from gaining all the weight back?  I think about this and then I freak out and just think about my heart bursting open or all kinds of other wacky side effects.  I know probably a million people use them but I am one of those people who believes herself to be in like the .00001%.  If there is a horrible side effect, I will get it.  This has only been proven to me once with a drug, but believe me once is enough.

The Toby in my mind is ready to propose marriage.  Not to me, but I am not sure if he is ready.  Of course, I may not get a say in the matter.  The thing that makes the stories so magical, for me and hopefully for the people who read them, is they are written by the character at the time.  The least I can do is shut uo, let him do what he wants to, and if I dont like it, dont post it.  Somehow I always like it though.  Right now I am fighting it by not writing at all.  I know myself though........that aint gonna last long.

OMG, Garth Brooks just came on my media player.  I used to be the biggest fan of his.  I still love him but like a decade ago, I was nuts over the man.  I love Random, I love music....it takes you back to these moments in your life and even if the moment is horrible, the song always puts this little nugget of goodness in your stomach.  Words and music, I dont know what I would be without them.  I never got people who said things like 'I dont like this genre of music'.  There is a jewel in every bit of music.  Bob Dylan, Paul Simon, Celine Dion, Jay-Z, Reba McEntire, even Britney Spears........my many moods fit songs from each one of them.  My life is better because their CDs are in it.   OMG, now Nat King Cole is on and this song never fails to make me think of Leo....OK, now I'm going to get verklempt.  I'll end it with that.
I'm In....: on a sugar high
I Feel....: fullfull
I Hear....: Nat King Cole "Smile"
vegawriters: Best Friends (Chris&Rita)vegawriters on January 1st, 2008 06:41 pm (UTC)
Your media player is as random as you are.

But I know what you mean about different genres speaking to you in different moments of your life. I needed my years of wandering through country and bad-pop to understand what I really like in music and while you'd never again get me contemplating going to a Garth concert, if Reba came back through, I'd attempt to stomach the rednecks for a night.

I'm far too much of a metal head to really appreciate all kinds of music in all forms, but I'm glad I've had the experiences that I've had because it makes me open to newer ideas in music.

As for the diet stuff, don't. do. it. Take it from me, please. Please. Take it from the word of someone who fucked her body up on laxatives (which is really what most of those products are. Laxatives or speed.) Just walk more, eat right ... I'm serious here. Don't fall prey to it. Trust the recovering anorexic/bulimic.
SSA McGeek: Miranda's thoughtsmcgarrygirl78 on January 1st, 2008 07:28 pm (UTC)
Re: *chuckles*
I will take your advice, seriously. The pull to lose weight is just so strong.....as I'm sure it is with a lot of women. There are just so many fads out there, and none of them truly work. Maybe my resolution should just be to take better care of my body, treat it like the temple it is. Not everyone is meant to be a size ten (though I would love to be a 12). I've pretty much looked the same since I was 14 so I guess I'm just me. This is it and I gotta work with what I got.

Edited at 2008-01-01 07:28 pm (UTC)
vegawriters: Holding Onto Your Power  (Lady Heather)vegawriters on January 1st, 2008 07:41 pm (UTC)
Re: *chuckles*
*hugs you*

You are a stunning woman, remember that. The rest will fall into place.
ohthisstarohthisstar on January 1st, 2008 11:43 pm (UTC)
that trim spa stuff does more harm than good. All it does is use crap to surpress your appetite but then you have trouble sleeping, pee a lot, and a lot of times they mess up your stomach. I haven't tried them but I know people who have and they have all stopped taking them.

And I agree with you on the music thing. There's good stuff in every genre.
SSA McGeek: Thank God I'm a Country Girlmcgarrygirl78 on January 1st, 2008 11:48 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I think I am not going to go there with the diet pills. Just get up off my bum and work out more. I've actually been thinking about signing up for a kickboxing class. Have fun and tone it up.
ginnyginnylcsw on January 2nd, 2008 01:21 am (UTC)
Well, I've never used Trim Spa or anything like that. But I have taken Alli. I used it over the summer and lost about 15 pounds. Got on the scale this morning and gained 5 back. Not as bad as I thought.

I'm not looking to be a size 8 or anything, would be happy with a 12 at the moment. Tired of being a size 16. So it's oatmeal and yogurt for breakfast and salad for lunch tomorrow.

Maybe I should actually unfold the treadmill, after I take off the ironed shirts I hung up on it last night.
SSA McGeek: I Wanna Be a Rich Bitchmcgarrygirl78 on January 2nd, 2008 02:41 am (UTC)
I know what you mean....our Gazelle is currently a stand in for a coat rack. We just dont seem to have any room to lay it out. One of the chairs in the living room just died though it might get a second chance. I honestly think if I lost 20 pounds I would be satisfied. Dont need to be a skinny mini.....dont think I could be but I would love to be in a 14/16. Luckily I am tall and everything is distributed well so most people have no idea what size I am.
ginnyginnylcsw on January 2nd, 2008 02:44 am (UTC)
Unfortunately, at 5'3" I am not tall at all, lol. Weighed 200 this morning and I like to think I don't look like I weight that much. But I do. Guess everything is distributed here too, all over!!
SSA McGeek: Thank God I'm a Country Girlmcgarrygirl78 on January 2nd, 2008 02:50 am (UTC)
OK, that almost made me fall over. Somehow I never pictured you that short. I am 5'8 and when I last stepped on a scale I was at 228. OMG, I cant believe I just wrote that...that makes it real. The part I hate most is my stomach but I know sit-ups are like the only thing that truly works. I have to be careful about my middle cuz diabetes runs in my family and my doctor says weight around the middle is a concern.
ginnyginnylcsw on January 2nd, 2008 02:55 am (UTC)
Well, the only picture you've seen of me is with Matt and you're probably taller than he is. But I am taller than my mom. I just hoping the girls make it to 5 feet tall. Bill is only 3 inches taller than I am, so the girls don't have much going for them in that department.
SSA McGeek: the prettiest girl in the roommcgarrygirl78 on January 2nd, 2008 03:02 am (UTC)
You never know, my grandparents were average height and my uncle is 6'4". Genes are funny sometimes. Maybe you can be my support person when I want a Hershey bar so bad someone might get hurt. I used to be a big choco-holic then it just ebbed one day. But surely if I virtually ban it from my diet I will want it every damn day.