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13 January 2008 @ 04:38 pm
So Amy and I hung out today.  We were supposed to meet at one but I am chronically early and Amy is chronically late.  So I got there at 12:45 and didnt expect to see her until 1:15 so I got a chance to walk over a few blocks and hit Barnes and Noble.  I needed to get some writing notebooks so I went straight to the back, avoiding all magazines and new fiction that intice you to buy them like drugs.  I grabbed one of my usual notebooks, a new one I had never seen before that looked good and then my eyes fell on another kind of journal.  It was called 40 Days and 40 Nights by Ilene Segalove and was all about changing your life  and writing it all down.  It had little prompts, activites, and blank pages to write what you were feeling.  I immediately picked it up.  I usually dont go for those kinds of things and attempts in the past to keep a journal have been useless.  I think I'm just not entirely comfortable writing down my truest feelings....almost afraid if they come out of my mouth I can no longer control them.  

But this is a journey, a 40 day journey and I think I am ready to take it.  I already know that 2008 is going to be a banner year for me.  2006 sucked ass, 2007 was recovery and reenergize, and 2008 is going to be the new life......the life I want to keep living until its time for me to go.  Sure, there will be other changes and maybe a few upheavals but the point of this book was to have a safe place to write things and little activities that make you want to say what you really feel or what you really think (or even what you wish you felt and thought instead of what you do).  I think I might be ready to let the real inner Montiese out.  Ooh, wonder how thats going to turn out.  I have 40 days to find out because I plan to start tonight. 

Amy and I did have a good time, we always do together.  We ate, did a little shopping and talked about what's happening amongst the people I dont hang out with anymore.  I talked about my writing, my book club, and my job.  Therapy came up a lot because so many of my sentences start with 'my therapist said...'  Its always so good when we are together because I can just be me and never feel as if that's not good enough as I did with some of our other friends.  She encouraged me to go to 600 in my fic and laughed as I told her the story of my quest for the perfect Leo button....which I have now by the way.  A good day, for sure.  Now I have to decide if I want to cut my braids out tonight or wait.  I dont think it will be a good idea for me to wait.
I'm In....: the lair
I Feel....: contemplativecontemplative
I Hear....: Gin Blossoms "Til I Hear It From You"
vegawriters: Chris&Ritavegawriters on January 14th, 2008 01:10 am (UTC)
I am SO glad you had fun with Amy. I know you've been looking forward to it.
SSA McGeek: I Wanna Be a Rich Bitchmcgarrygirl78 on January 14th, 2008 01:58 am (UTC)
Yeah, I also went inside H & M for the first time. I cant fit anything in there because the clothes are made so small but everything was so faddish. It all seemed so "trendy", made me want to throw up. OK, I bought a really cute satchel bag but that was it. It's really cute.