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10 January 2008 @ 06:07 pm
Contemplating What's Next  

I just erased my whole damn post because it was boring.  BLAH, YUCK, BULLSHIT.  I wanna talk about something interesting.  I am contemplating completely revamping my life.......Extreme Makeover: Montiese edition.  I want to re-do myself, my environment and see where that takes me.  I am going to be 30 in 90 days.  I feel like this is the start of something for me and not the end.  I talked about it over lunch today at work and the girls there are all about me getting some kind of makeover.  New hair, new makeup, new me.  But I was never the hair and makeup type and that's not what I mean by a makeover.  

I do want to get a new wardrobe, jazz myself up a bit.  I tend to wear a lot of black and grey, mostly because its slimming, but even my therapist says I have a lot of aspects I could show off but instead hide.  I have always been a big fan of the color red and it looks good on me so I think I am going to add it to my look.  I think I am going to go out and buy some "girly" shoes instead of the sensible ones I always wear.  I definitely want to lose 20 pounds but I doubt I could do that in 90 days.  I can start though and I spent some time today thinking about an exercise regimen and changing the way I eat without completely losing myself.  

I need to cook more and order out for lunch at work less.  I need to occasionally eat a salad instead of almost never.  I need to remember to take my vitamins every morning.  I want to surf the local net and find a kickboxing class or maybe a group playing volleyball.  I love volleyball.  I want to continue to sign up for the monthly book club meetings because it combines two things I miss so much right now: social outings and reading.  I want to clean up this room and really start to get rid of things I will never use again and stop being a damn packrat (I got that from my mother).  

I just want to start off my 30th year with a bang, you know?  Still be me but get out there and be me.  I have a shitload to offer the masses......for years I was a real social butterfly.  Then I stopped hanging out with so many people because I just felt the situations were unhealthy.  That certainly doesnt mean hanging out is unhealthy.  I also need to meet some men and get laid.  Not just laid, I need to date some, explore, laugh, be kissed, hold hands, all that other shit that I never do.  I need to get back to my original stories, revamp some and write new ones and put them out there for world scrutiny and maybe publication.  I have the talent, I am sure of it, I just need the balls.  Because what I want to do for myself takes balls and I am working on it.  I will be like Leo McGarry, fake it til I make it.  I'll do things anyway, even if I'm nervous, scared, or unsure if I will make a total ass of myself.  Because if I dont there is no point.  I wont be able to complain about anything if I dont give it a good, old-fashioned try.  April 20, 2008 to April 19, 2009........it will be the most exciting 365 of my life.  And I want to record every moment of it right here.

I'm In....: the lair
I Feel....: excitedexcited
I Hear....: Steve Perry "Foolish Heart"
ginnyginnylcsw on January 11th, 2008 11:50 am (UTC)
I think we have the same goals for the year. Better/different clothes, lose weight, cook and clean more.

As for the meeting more men, you're on your own, I have enough men in my life *g*
SSA McGeek: Happy Girlmcgarrygirl78 on January 11th, 2008 12:36 pm (UTC)
You certainly do have enough men in your life....can I borrow one ; )

Yeah, I'm just looking for a little something different, maybe someone a little hotter looking back at me when i stare in the mirror because I see all the potential under the layers I have put on to protect myself. But seriously, I refuse to involve myself in this like whole makeover thing the girls at work want to do because at the heart of it, I think I am just dandy, thank you.
ohthisstar: smileohthisstar on January 11th, 2008 06:40 pm (UTC)
I feel you on the wardrobe thing. I feel like mine is so blah! and there are so many exciting clothes out there!

And I hope you do meet someone and get laid ha ha. Pray for me on that one as well :)
SSA McGeek: Patricia!!!!!!!!!!mcgarrygirl78 on January 11th, 2008 10:55 pm (UTC)
I know, in high school I thought I was the snazziest dresser, though I'm sure if I look back at the pictures I was anything but :)

I have about 350 days to ge this accomplished so I think it might actually happen.
.smomintots on January 14th, 2008 04:26 am (UTC)
Red is a spiiicy color.

Extreme Makeoever: Life Edition.

Do it. Everyone needs a good life makeover at least once. And why not at 30? Its a good solid number.
SSA McGeek: the prettiest girl in the roommcgarrygirl78 on January 14th, 2008 11:57 pm (UTC)
Yeah, lots of red and some purple and maybe even some yellow....I used to love yellow. This is going to be a whole lotta fun for me.