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21 December 2007 @ 09:29 pm
Work was good today in the sense that I knew I wouldnt have to be back for two days but also boring because like 98% of my stuff is done for the year.  Went to tower.com and bought CDs, always an adventure.  Got Babes in Toyland, Fontanelle, another tape that I never replced and should have.  Hope I still love them as much as I did 10 years ago when I was damn near a different person.  Got more Christmas gifts from coworkers and felt all cheery inside.  More pajama pants, slipper socks, and notebooks (which to those who know me well is like a wet dream).  Very stoked.

Looking forward to a Saturday off though off means cleaning, wrapping gifts and finally putting up that damn tree.  Probably listen to massive amounts of Christmas music until I am ready to implode.  Yay!!!!

Still writing too damn much.  Wrote something like 220 fic stories this year which is a bit ridiculous but what can I say?  Still enjoying it and until I dont anymore that is what I am going to do.  Also want to start working on cleaning up some of my original stuff from the vaults for 2008 goal of getting published.  But since I am a procrastinator of the tallest order, I know I can put that off officially for like another 10 days or so.  Definitely want to start trying to find an agent, or something, by my birthday.  The big 3-0..........oh how I look forward to thee.  28 and 29, had some sparkling moments but had some dark ones too.  Want to make up for it as I enter a new and exciting decade with so much to look forward to.
I'm In....: the lair
I Feel....: tiredtired but excited
I Hear....: Third Eye Blind
vegawriters: Guitar God - Whipvegawriters on December 22nd, 2007 03:36 am (UTC)
i'm so glad you're looking forward to 30 ...
... I am dreading it with each passing breath.
SSA McGeek: bashful grinmcgarrygirl78 on December 22nd, 2007 03:52 am (UTC)
Re: i'm so glad you're looking forward to 30 ...
I dont understand that....I look forward to growing old gracefully and all the wonderful as well as horrible experiences that will come with it. I know a lot of people who feel as you. I'm going to have a super killer party...even if I'm all by my damn self!!!!!!
vegawriters: Bi-Flowervegawriters on December 22nd, 2007 04:22 am (UTC)
Re: i'm so glad you're looking forward to 30 ...
I'm just fucking terrified of it. I fully admit to buying into so many of the stupid myths that we face as twenty-somethings in this culture and that it's not the best idea, but thirty scares the fuck out of me. I am absolutely not where I wanted to be at this point in my life. 40, I'm kind of looking forward to. Thirty, not so much.
SSA McGeek: smile for me sugarmcgarrygirl78 on December 22nd, 2007 04:32 am (UTC)
Re: i'm so glad you're looking forward to 30 ...
Well, you got a year or so to get used to the idea ;)

Dont even think about it.....you've got time. I certainly wasnt thinking about 30 before I turned 29, I am looking forward to it because it is here and I love every birthday. I dont care how old I am.....birthdays ROCK!!!!!!

40 is too far off for me to even really fully comprehend. It is not possible for me to look that far into the future.
vegawriters: I'm Just a Little Brokenvegawriters on December 22nd, 2007 04:39 am (UTC)
Re: i'm so glad you're looking forward to 30 ...
Birthdays have always been hard for me. I've had some lovely ones. I can think of one in particular :) but they're just hard psychologically.
SSA McGeek: I just wanted Leo and CJmcgarrygirl78 on December 22nd, 2007 04:50 am (UTC)
Re: i'm so glad you're looking forward to 30 ...
I understand though it has never been that way for me. The day itself, I have had some bad ones, but the idea of growing older, growing period, is something I have always cherished. Even if its not going as I want, even if it sucks...I almost look at it like a new year, renewal, all that stuff. Another year for me to get it right and accomplish some goals.

But this one coming up just feels so special because I finally feel like I have left the majority of the dark clouds behind. Surely not all of them but I am definitely ready for the next act of this play that is my life. This might be the part when our heroine meets her match and saves the world from destruction.
vegawriters: Dreams in the Shadows (Royal Bliss)vegawriters on December 22nd, 2007 04:59 am (UTC)
Re: i'm so glad you're looking forward to 30 ...
*chuckles* Well, awesome. May the heroine go out into the world and conquer it. :) I really hope that you do, sweetie. Honestly. I think you are ready for what's ahead.

For me, the issue has never been growing. God knows how much I love to grow and learn and change and challenge myself in new and different ways. And even growing older isn't as scary for me as the actual frigging day.

I'll be honest. I would bet that a good bit of it is completely based on the fact that my birthday is 3 days away from Valentine's Day, which is quite possibly the worst day ever created by marketing. So I have to suffer through the build up to Valentine's and then *bam* it's my stupid birthday and it all just sucks.

But yeah, it's the stupid day that trips me up.